I miss the way your eyes lit up in the sunlight

with a green line wrapped around your pupil

The way you called me baby felt so effortless, second nature,

in a way nobody else could, enchanting, putting me in a trance

You were always too good, too kind

I always felt invincible in your arms, in your eyes

Like I could reach my wildest goals without a hinder

The way your hand crept its way into mine

Interlocking for hours on end, your thumb grazing mine

Subtly letting me know everything was alright

The way you’d hold me while we slept, sweet and sound

You’d put your arms around me and kiss the back of my neck

I always felt safe with you, like nothing could hurt me

I miss the most when you’d wash my hair

and hold me close while water washed away our hardest times

You didn’t mind the fact that my eyes always get red and puffy in the shower

or how I never brushed my hair

You didn’t mind that I was never a high-maintenance type of girl,

you love me best in sweatpants

You always taught me to love who I am,

because in the end, that’s all I’ve got

You taught me that no goal is out of reach,

if you want something bad enough, go for it

That’s how you got me, I’ll never forget

I miss your lips whispering to me while I sleep,

I miss the ‘I love you’s in the middle of the night,

Sharing a pillow with you because we just wanted to be as close as possible,

I miss sharing myself with you in a way explainable to others,

I miss how I could ask you if I look alright and even when I know I don’t,

You still look at me like the breath has been taken from your body,

Like you had never seen anything so beautiful

I miss the late night cigarettes on the patio

and the discussions about anything and everything

Words I could never cross with anyone else

Wouldn’t dare to, they could never compare

I can’t stand not having you by my side, I can’t

I can’t

I cannot stress enough how thrilled I am with the way things are going. I’ve been going out more & spending less time focusing on negatives.

I’m so happy to have my baby back. Words can’t even describe how relived it all feels; to see him smile, to hear him call me baby, to kiss him, feel his soft lips press against mine.

Oh god, how good it felt to kiss you.

I really have missed you. Please don’t ever leave. I love you so.